I don't think it's a secret that I am not one of those women who love to be pregnant. I don't exude pregnancy happiness and think I am the cutest thing in the world while carrying around an extra 30 lbs of weight - regardless of where the majority of that weight resides. It doesn't matter that I have a 30 lb stomach that is holding a baby. I still have a 30 lb stomach.
I don't hate being pregnant either. It's just...kinda painful (not including the actual labor part). Hard to sleep. Hard to recover from. It changes physical features forever. Pregnancy also vacillates between being super cool and amazing and incredible and just plain weird. I mean, what the heck? A child is actually hanging out in my body right now? Don't get me wrong, it's an incredible miracle. The whole process of life creation is...too amazing for words. But when the babies get bigger and start actually shaking bellies with their movement it's almost like those movies where there is an alien or huge bugs under the characters skin that are trying to break through. And it's weird to look at my 4 1/2 year old and think that she used to live in my body.
There are two really, really super duper bestest things that result from pregnancy though. This is one:
This is the other:
*Sigh* I can't wait to see what the next one looks like.
We find out the gender on Tuesday and I can barely wait. It's super funny because some peoples reaction when we tell them we are finding out are along the lines of, "Really? You are going to ruin the surprise? Don't you want to be surprised?" Or, if they are pregnant, they say, "We are waiting to be surprised." Well, let me tell you, on Tuesday I am pretty sure I will feel as equally as surprised to find out if it's a boy or girl as if I waited until June. :)
I don't have any guesses right now. The only certain thing I know is that this pregnancy feels different from my other two, whereas they felt kind of the same. Which makes me super curious to know if it is another girl, because at this point it would make sense if it was a boy.
Anyone want to take a guess before we find out? :)
Since this is my last pregnancy I am trying really hard to enjoy it and focus more on the positive things. One of which is the fact that I actually feel pretty good right now! I think that since I ran so much before I got pregnant and was in pretty good shape that my body is carrying this baby more like it carried Tryn, in some ways better. When I was pregnant with Tryn I had heart racing and skipping beats issues, maybe from not being super fit? I don't know, the Dr.'s couldn't figure it out. When I was pregnant with Berlin my stomach muscles hurt so bad at this point already, it was hard to take my shoes off (I did not work out at all between T and B). Besides the fact that it is getting harder to bend over and I can't sleep on my stomach, I am pretty comfortable right now. Awesomeness.
Seriously, any guesses? :)