Monday, August 29, 2011

Freaking Out

Today I am trying not to freak out about several things. One of them is this:

Remember this little baby that I had practically yesterday? She starts school a week from tomorrow. If I think about it too long I might start crying and never stop.

See these two?

They are almost exactly 5 years apart. Five years ago Tryn looked like Kye does in this picture, and now she is big enough to hold him.

Two weeks ago, for the first time ever, I felt excited for Tryn to go to school. She is going to have so much fun learning things that I don't know how to teach her, having all of her questions answered, and making new friends. Her mind is at a place where it needs to be stretched, used, and grown - all with information and projects that I don't have time to do with her. And so I am glad that she will get to learn, because so far she loves to learn.

But I am going to miss her being around.

Also, I am a little nervous about the fact that we are embarking on this journey of "school"...for the next 20 or so years. That seems like a really big thing. Every year around this time we are going to be getting ready for school, the kids will be gone most of the day, and that feels crazy. I was homeschooled and childhood was a totally different experience for me, I don't really know how to do this "going to school" thing. And that seems weird.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, I don't have a ton of time to think about it because I also have a newborn to take care of, a three year old to run after, a five year old to occupy, and a puppy who needs attention. Not to mention we are moving into our first house this week and my husband is starting a new job today.

Call me in a few weeks to see if I am still sane.



lhassler said...

This may or may not make you feel better, but with both of my children, we did major home moves within four weeks of their births, and my husband started a new job both times. I stayed sane, and got very wise about time-management and what can physically be done when you think it can't. Good luck!

Sara said...

I'm going to try to say this often to you guys-- I'm praying for all of you in this time of huge transitions... and as much as I'm mourning my loss, I'm celebrating the new blessings in the life of your family, and support you in the moves that you are making!

I admire you, Heidi, in the way that you are finding strength to plow through the changes, particularly at a time that Steve has had so many demands on him. He's told me often that for me at CPC, "it's going to be okay". I hope you know that "in a few weeks", things are going to be more than okay for you. You're doing awesome. :-)

Mamma Bird said...

YOU ARE DOING AWESOME!! Kids grow. If you find a way to stop it let me know. But at least we can take pictures!!